Ok, so I’m gonna start this blog with the reasons why and what led me to this point. See it as a little intro to me, my life and how I’ve ended up here, writing this blog.
My name is Ange, I turned 40 earlier this year, I have a 19yr old son and I’m a midwife. I haven’t always been a midwife, I had recent change of career after realising at age 35 that I definitely didn’t want to do an office job for the rest of my life. So I made a change. A massive change. And it’s paid off. I absolutely love my job. Becoming a midwife was the second best decision I ever made in my life. Becoming a mother was the first.
I had my son when I had just turned 21, it was not a planned pregnancy and the “father” wanted nothing to do with me. So it’s been just Me and Matt since 2005. I am very lucky to have the most AMAZING family around me that have helped me through the whole parenting process but I’m not gonna say it’s been prefect. I have made mistakes, some HUGE mistakes along the way but as I get older I strongly believe that mistakes are lessons to be learnt, the problem comes when you don’t learn from them and keep making those same mistakes.
Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked which brings me to my next point. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD. As an adult woman this has been an interesting point in my life. I look back on my childhood, sometimes with envy and anger at how different it could have been, I could have been, if ADHD had been more understood and recognised then. But it wasn’t so I learned to live as I was. I created techniques to cope, I travelled through many varying diagnoses and have tested multiple different medications but none of it ever helped or made sense or stuck long term. Since being diagnosed with ADHD, doing my own research into it, suddenly my life seems clearer somehow. I don’t have to apologise for who I am, I can embrace my ‘quirks’ and learn to live with them. I can accept myself for who I am and that is EMPOWERING!!!
So that brings us to now. I’m on a journey of discovery and understanding. Trying to understand my brain, how I work, how to love myself, and what I want from my life. I am a Midwife, a Mother, a Daughter, a Friend, a Sister, someone with ADHD but I am so much more than the sum of my parts so I’m living my life for me and trying to find what makes me truly happy.
This Blog will be a journey, sometimes literally around the world. It was gonna be a travel blog but now it’s gonna be so much more than that. Feel free to join me on this journey if you want. If not that’s cool, it’s gonna be for me more than anything anyway.
So for now I’m gonna say see ya. Look out for the first installment, coming really soon.
Ange x
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